Welcome to Lee's wonderful website!
Who is this person?
He's the type of guy who would want to make a website, but still needs a lot of help.
Please do recognize that a lot of the design for this website is not actually the work of the Magnificent, Omnipotent Lee, but is rather the work of Goblin Heart. I seriously cannot fully explain just how thankful I am for their work - people who are dedicated like that are why life's worth living.
But seriously, I am no one particularly important, but I just believe that this is the way the internet should be, and an internet like this needs proper citizens. It's something I find deeply fascinating, and thought it was worth a shot. What's a little html going to do to me? html hasn't murdered anybody (not directly, at least), not yet at least.
- Anemoia -
This is a word that's not actually in my family's dictionary, which makes sense, given that the dictionary (A Merriam-Webster based on their Collegiate Dictionary, Eleventh Edition, with a copywrite for 2004) was made before the word existed. For those not familiar with "anemoia" as a word, it means "Nostalgia for a Time You Never Experienced." (sourced from "The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows") Of course, this is a feeling that I feel. Hell, this website is me directly participating in that feeling. It's nice to try and revive a dying craft, and I think this is something important. Websites are all the same, all the same "hey you want a cookie that spies on you or no?" things, all made from the same few layout builders. It's lame! So why the hell don't we bring back this wonderful craft?
I guess for some people this feeling contributes to fascist movements, people looking back on their country's history and wanting to make it great again! But the problem is, those times weren't really great, only for a select few (though that seems like what we're going back to). Rome was a powerful nation, unlike Italy of the 1930's. There is some degree of reason they would want to bring that back, on surface level. But Rome was also a nation built on the backs of slaves. There was vast inequality, this was not what they should be seeking. HOWEVER! I don't think that going back to an earlier internet will grow a fascist movement. They're fundamentally different things, but I just felt like I should clarify that too much anemoia can lead to dark places. Though at that point, it might not be good to even associate such a cutesy word with the idea.
I went off on a tangent there, I just think it's a neat word. I think that it's cool how recently it was created. There was a literal word-smith behind this word, and this word is genuinely useful too.
- Graduating -
I have finally graduated from high school, after 3 not very gruling but quite tedious years. The world feels like it has opeened entirely and also not at all. I'm still young, too young to do fun things like drugs, sex, and coco-puffs. It feels pretty much the same though, nothing has really changed. I'm still the same me as I was before I finished my senior year. The world seems pretty shit though, everything has teeth. But that's what everyone is dealing with, and I'm to join in the struggle. High school provided a sense of schedule, it was something that I had to do, now I don't have something to that extent. Maybe I'll start to schedule out days, just so that I can get into a habit of doing shit. Hang up bells, have announcements for one room. A bell for 5 minutes but I'm going to the same room. Then I can finally have a schedule again.
But seriously, I should set aside time to do things, try and shake off some addictions and bad habits.
Older technologies are items I've found deeply fascinating, there's a wonderful, analog feeling behind when you use them. You can feel their function, and that's something that I absolutely love. Probably my favorite piece is the Sony DCR-DVD108 DVD Handycam Camcorder. I've gotten a fair amount of use of it, and the best part is the click behind working with it. Those mini-disks will long outlast me, and maybe someone out in the future will look over them, find some humanity in people they've never met.
My MP3 player has gotten more use though, it's one of the older walkmen. It's this little old thing that's lasted me a good few years. You can feel its function, and that's something I absolutely love.